Worrying am i delusional or detached from reality?

i get racing thoughts pretty bad, i have constantly low moods, i worry alot. have great anxiety and panic in everyday life. ive had inner rage problems that i struggled with along with the other symptoms, all this has been goin on since 15 im 29 now. a a couple of years ago i used to have uncontrolable aggressive outbursts when outside, i ended up in trouble, i kicked someone up the bum. i regretted this i ended up, goin into youth custody, and while there i exaggerated my illness & ended up spending 18 months in a psychiatric hospital, which was a nightmare,truly. locked up with severly disturbed people all the time. ive been bullied & victimised alot in my life, gangs of youths in the street, guys at school, i went through 5 high schools cos of bullying. my anger has improved alot in the present, but i still have intense inner rage feelings. however i get paranoid ideas alot that ive had years & i worry i might have a delusional disorder that i might never be able to get well from?